A few small things came to an end today. Normally, these would be things that I wouldn't think twice about, but today, they caught my attention. I'm not sure why, but they got me thinking.
The first of these things was that I finished writing in the last page of my prayer journal during my time with God today. I know, it's only a journal, and to probably anybody but me, it doesn't mean anything. But to me, that journal contains my thoughts, fears, ambitions, dreams, tears, and cries to God. The first entry in that journal was made June 13th of this year. At that time, I was questioning the call God had placed on my life to come here to North Central, and now, as I wrote the few last sentences in this journal, I know with complete assurance that I am supposed to be here and this is my home. I have been through so much from the time I wrote the first word on those pages to today - when I wrote the last word. I have been on a crazy journey with God, and now, as I look at that journal - I know that He was there every step of the way. He was there, listening to my every prayer and thought. He never left my side, and He never will. He has brought me through what has been the craziest and hardest times of my life in these past few months, and I am thankful for that journal to be a reminder of what God has done in my life. I am thankful that I am not the same person I was when I started that journal.
On the last page of my journal, I wrote this:
"I'm on the last page, God. Thank you for this journal and the journey it represents. Bless the people that gave this to me. Lord, thank you that this is not the end of a journey, but only the beginning. I wish I could end at a better spot, but God you are still moving and working and I believe that you will do that in my life until the day I die.
Be with me always, Lord. Never leave my side. Burn a passion for you so bright in my heart. Give me your heart, your burden for your people.
I will never find the words to describe you. You are awesome, Lord. Thank you for being al that you are. Thank you for faith. Thank you that I do not understand you, but you are always faithful.
I love you God.
Your will be done, forever and ever, amen."
While I was writing those words, God showed me that His work will never be done in my life. He will never stop moving and drawing me closer to Him. He will always make new things in my life. And I don't know about you, but that just amazes me. It is so awesome to me that my God loves me enough to keep working in my life every single day until the day that I die. And because of this, I will chose to praise Him all of my days. I will chose to put Him first always, even on the off days, because God is still moving. And that is just incredible.
Another thing that came to an end today for me was the New Testament. I've been reading through it since I went on my trip to NYC this past summer, and today I finally read the last few chapters of Revelations. I thought it was pretty cool how two things that have to do with my personal life with God came to an end today. In those chapters, I found the verse Revelation 21:5, which says "I am making everything new!" It was really going along with what God was already speaking to me, so I thought it was great.
I love that God is making new things in my life, and that He will never stop bringing me closer to Him and creating me to be more like Him. I am so thankful for all that He has done in my life, for this journey I am on with Him, and that He will never stop. It's all really, really awesome. I serve an amazing God.
[Oh, and random side note: look up Revelation 21:3-4 sometime. Those verses are a really awesome reminder of what it's going to be like once we finally see Jesus.]
God bless you guys today. I hope you're all doing well and that through reading this (really long) post, God was able to at least speak something to your heart. You are all in my prayers and I hope that your journeys with God are going as well as mine is. Remember that He will never leave you and He is always looking to do new things in your life, you just have to let Him.
Peace to you all. (:
Just wanted to say thanks for posting! You have inspired me to at least one of my own posts :-) I am so proud of you following God to College and other countries. I saw you're changing your long plan of being a missionary. I know this is not the end but only the beginning. Keep following God's heart and His promptings. I will help for your Kenya trip. So if a cutoff date is getting close remind me!!
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